I miss writing in this all the time!  In a nutshell, life isn't perfect, but every day I work to make my dreams come true.  Trying to stay happy but never satisfied...  reading and experiencing as much as I can along the way.  I still love the adventure known as my life.

PS it's cold.

http://www.nba.com/video/channels/top_plays/2009/08/26/nba_20090825_bulls_top10.nba/

i love that i witnessed the #1 play in person...

The one thing that has come in and out of my life in rather consistent waves since I was 12 is on its way back in... and I cannot wait.

Super sad that Ben Gordon decided to sign with the Pistons :(

I'm having flashbacks to 2006 when we traded Tyson Chandler to the Hornets. 

I know what counts the most is the name on the front of the jersey, not the back, but that doesn't ease the disappointment of losing your favorite...  but can someone please explain how we are going to win when we have just lost our leading scorer?  This will only be okay if we get Chris Bosh NOW.

These recent tragedies are just starting to hit me - probably because I turned on this Michael Jackson marathon on MTV... Life is too short to worry about some of the "issues" and "stresses" we concern ourselves with.  Our energy can be spent in such a positive and productive way instead.

Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race.

Things are happening around me that used to amuse me... now I find them ridiculous and unnecessary...  I think this means I grew up when I wasn't paying attention.

WUSTL young alumni event was tonight at Rock Bottom - so great as usual...

So exhausted, need to attempt to catch up on sleep.

Get an inch, want a mile... it's a blessing and a curse.

Never being satisfied is not my best quality and being impatient makes it worse.

Wait, when the time is right, all will work out the way it is supposed to...

Today was a nice day.  Allie and I saw the Harry Potter exhibit at the Museum of Science and Industry and we saw Star Trek.  I spent Friday night at Jenna's at her super fun housewarming party and Saturday was spent working and with Julie for her bday dinner at OTOM.  My life is really good but I cannot explain the search for something more in my life.  I have been trying to take advantage of opportunities at my fingertips lately... actually DOING things I say I want to do - museums, musicals, operas, restaurants.  Now once I can work in seeing my friends on a regular basis, one part of my life will finally be in place.

Studying has helped, I feel like my brain is finally being stimulated again, but I know I am reaching for more.  I miss school.  I miss the challenge of a task that was difficult but that I could accomplish with hard work and dedication.  Having to rely on so much that I cannot control in order to acheive a predefined standard of "success" does not work for me.

I have said for months and months that I am itching to travel and see the world.  I will have some type of international adventure planned within the next year - not inlcuding my trip to India for Uttam's wedding in Aug - mark my words.

The "transitional" period of life after graduation can sometimes be very beneficial for graduates.  Personally, I know I grew, I know I've learned a lot, I experienced a dream for a short while and had some emotional ups-and-downs... but I'm done with this "transition" and I am ready to make that next step happen...

my dinner made me sick... i cannot stand up... someone dig a hole so i can crawl into it until further notice.

ewewew

I’m going home down hearted and hoping
I’m close to some new beginning
I know there’s a reason for everything
That comes and goes

But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And I maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining

Most days I try my best
To put on a brave face
But inside my bones are cold
And my heart breaks
But all the while something’s keeping me safe
And alive

But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining

And I won’t give up like this
I will be given strength
Now that I’ve found it
Nothing can take that away

So many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And I maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing

So many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining

Sweet silver lining

I tried to use a curling iron on my hair tonight and all the "curls" fell out in minutes... is this because I don't use hairspray?

so nervous about the game.

128-127.

Triple Overtime.

Bulls Win.

I WAS THERE.

My tolerance for two things has hit rock bottom.

1) people who say one thing and then act the complete opposite way to others. I noticed. You look dumb. :)

2) people who complain and complain about their problems but instead of attempting to fix the problems, they perpetuate them and then attempt to justify.

In any case, my life is going well but recent examples of 1 & 2 above remind me why certain situations need to be cut out of my life!

So exhausted!

A Britney Spears concert in Las Vegas is like a Halloween party...

This weekend has been so satisfying.  I was able to get to the gym all three days - finally.  I have studied, even though I do have a ton to work on this evening.  And I spent time with friends.  Friends that have been in my life for almost 8 years.  Good friends that I can totally be myself around.  People that I don't see as often as I used to but time apart doesn't affect our friendship.  I am blessed to have them in my life.

After a conversation with my mom, I again realized how minuscule my "problems" are.  I am rediscovering the power of prayer in life and I think that it is helping a lot.

The NBA Playoffs are the greatest time of the year.

I have my tv show that I escape in, I have my music group to emotionally lean on when I am down, but there is NOTHING IN THIS WORLD that gives me as much joy as the Chicago Bulls.  We just beat the Boston Celtics AT HOME in overtime in Game 1 of the NBA Playoffs... the defending NBA champs... There is no way to put this feeling into words.  I am near tears right now.

I feel bad for people who don't have a team to cheer for.  The emotional roller coaster of a season - cheering on the highs and pushing through the lows... the ups and downs of good and bad seasons.  The cheers and tears... every single moment of it - worth it for games like today.

I need to shower before Kristina gets here.

I don't know if I should laugh or cry.

Life has been amazing lately...  I have had some great things come through at work - stuff that was stressing me out that just fell into place lately.  It was so relieving. 

Then Wednesday, some good people were able to take care of Mallory and I and get us passes to the WGCI // DAY26 party-concert...  They went on at 1130 though and by the time I got home it was past 1am - yuck.  I love those guys those - and Will's family too.  His mom may be my favorite!  Ha!

Thursday was "RENT" with Adam Pascal and Anthony Rapp.  OMG.  There are no words to describe how spectacular it was.  I have not been so affected by a piece of work in such a long time.  I had chills the ENTIRE time and I was moved to tears towards the end.  The production was so beautiful and I feel blessed to have been able to see some of the original cast in it.

Headed to Indy for the weekend - Friday was low-key (Original Spaghetti Factory, I missed you!).  Saturday, Alyssa and I visited the NCAA Hall of Champions before the Pacer / Pistons game.  I was technically a guest of Sam Perkins at the game.  If you don't know who Sam Perkins is, google him.  And I may need to reconsider our friendship hahahaha JK.  Megan hooked us up majorly after the game and we had VIP / private table / bottle service... and it was all comp'd.  Pretty sick.  Some of the Pacers were there - I had an extremely awkward conversation with Roy Hibbert.  

What a weekend, ending with Easter dinner with family friends @ Between.  Oh yeah and the Bulls are in the Playoffs - YAY!

This week is extremely stacked too - working at the Globetrotters show tomorrow, class Tues, LAST REGULAR SEASON BULLS GAME WEDNESDAY, work stuff Thursday and Friday and Saturday morning. 

People always say what goes around comes around and if you are a good person, good things happen to you.  It's true.  Be good, it's worth it.

In other news, CT is a total punk, I used to be pretty much obsessed with him and he's acting like an ass on the premiere of the duel.  And where is Kenny?  I do like Isaac though.  Hah.  I think Adam and CT broke some of the bunk beds in their brawl.  This fight is absolutely out of control.

Okay bed.